In Christ Alone

I've tried to deny it to myself in hopes that it'll make it hurt less, but the fact still remains-I loved him. No, I wasn't head-over-heels in love with him, but I cared for him deeply. I still do. 

My heart can be so overwhelmed with emotions that all I can do is run to my Savior and weep and let Him hold me. 

Anger. Brokenness. Love. Hurt. Disappointment. Longing. Confusion. Bitterness. Hope. A desire to see him grow into the man of God You created him to be. 

All of those emotions are just in regards to my ex-that doesn't even include the rest of my life.

In times like this, the Lord uses things like the song In Christ Alone. It has sort of become the theme song of my life right now. It literally comes on my Pandora all of the time and always right when I need it the most.

Different parts of the song speak to my heart at different times, but one of my favorites says:

And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine

Unfortunately, we are human and, therefore, fallible. But to imagine that one day we will be free from the grip of sin....oh! how glorious that will be! In the meantime, "let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us" (Hebrews 12:1).

My heart may be weary, but my Savior is constantly sustaining me.